three-day mayhem

I find myself one week into school and I'm already tired of it. Being a senior entitles you to be lazy. Maybe, maybe not, but my classes don't require me to work as much as I had to in my junior year. Whatever the case may be, having a three-day weekend was very much needed.

Colleges, colleges, colleges. I have finally begun my process of listing down the noble schools I am going to apply to (one of them will be the lucky winner of having me attend their school!). From East Coast to West Coast, life seems so much more fulfilling than living here in Plano. This week I found out that Plano is rated to be the richest city in America (and that says a lot). But with so much money, Plano has got to be one of the most boring places to live. There is never anything fun to do, and everything that is considered "fun" is seldom free. But I find myself relaxing in one of my favorite places to be at the moment: Java and Cha. And yes, I work there, but why not love the place you work? I think it makes my job more pleasing.

A phrase came to me this week while I was sitting in Sunday service. After the end of this summer, I find myself somewhat alone in my search for God. The majority of my bible study has all gone their separate ways due to college and are now discovering their "true lives" as many would put it. Here I am stuck, once again, in Plano, wishing one day to be free to roam about this world. God has shown me extraordinary things this summer, but here I am living such an ordinary life for God. And recently, I have become fearful of facing my future. More so, I'm fearful of giving it all to God.

Which brings me back to the phrase. During our missions trip back from YUGO, we stopped at a church in Austin called The Stone. The pastor spoke truthfully about how to deal with letting go of our selfishness and giving it to God.

The phrase that he said that really impacted me was: "What do you fear most? Do you fear your future? Do you fear your debts? Do you fear your relationships? Or do you fear God?"

" The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom; all who follow his precepts have good understanding. To him belongs eternal praise." Psalm 111:10

What am I fearing most? It's time for me to offer myself to Him. God always knows how to comfort a soul like mine.


I am very much in love with British music at the moment. An amazing artist that I've been listening to for quite awhile now is a man named David Gray.


The One I Love by David Gray

A great singer, an excellent songwriter, what more can you ask? More of my European music as my entries continue...