Jesus, Savior, pilot me

What do I feel? I can't seem to control my grief amidst all of God's grace and mercy that He has shown me in the past couple of weeks. As I end the chapter of my adolescent life here in Plano, I begin to realize that everything that was once comfortable like my family and my friends will be far from my reach. For someone who relies very heavily on the accompaniment of loved ones, it makes me so nervous for what is to come, for the fear of the unknown. And at the same time, there are many things that go through my mind that make me want to start anew. I've been feeling so weighed down, so strange recently, it's been hard for me to put a finger down on what is causing me all this distraught. And God has continued to lavish His mercy upon me even though I don't deserve it. I have been such a wretch and a fool. Yet, I am constantly reminded that God can turn the bad into good. I am comforted by the beautiful hymn, of the lines that tell the story of Jesus calming the stormy seas. And as I continue to feel this emotional pain, I know God is there to comfort me, that I may turn my affections toward Him who gives me peace."(Then, while leaning on Your chest/May I hear You say to me/Fear not, I will pilot thee")

"As a mother stills her child
You can hush the oceans wild
Boisterous waves obey Thy will
When You say to them, Be still
Wondrous Sovereign of the sea
Jesus, Savior, pilot me"